Type 2 Diabetes
I am seriously considering either changing this blog into a resource for type 2 diabetes management or creating a new blog dedicated solely for that purpose. I am not sure if anybody reads my blog besides my family and friends. 5 trillion blogs already exist so my guess is that I don't have much of a following in my ramblings. So my minor dilemma is do I want to jumble this blog with the usual posts and mix in diabetes info as I go along, or start from scratch and try to write 2 blogs when I barely have time to manage and update 1. My intention when I began this blog a couple years ago was simply to keep a little slice of cyberspace for myself. A way to communicate primarily with a few family members. It was something I thought would be a good creative project, and assumed nobody would ever really read what I wrote. Currently I find myself at a crossroad in life. A point where my lifestyle must completely change, and I am working through accepting and embracing that. In a short span of time my focus has been shifted. My top priority is management of my health and the challenges I face. The best way to explain this is suddenly things that seemed important became trivial. Things I overlooked became things I needed to focus on immeadiately. What I need to do in regard to type 2 diabetes is fairly straight forward. Just because the lifestyle changes that must be made are clear cut, it does not mean it is a simple task to manage. To make a crude analogy; when a person goes through a knee surgery they enter into physical therapy 2 weeks after. That PT is more painful than the surgery, and improvement is slow. It takes 6 months or more and most of the time it feels like you will never return to anything close to normal. You have a Physical therapist that pushes you, and when they see you limping they pull you aside and give you hell about it. They are like a personal trainer that keeps you on track, pushing you against your own will, and in the end it pays off. Type 2 diabetes comes with no coach. It does come with a lot of emotions. Fear, remorse, regret, confusion, did I mention fear? It creates a desire to be able to turn back the clock to when you were pre-diabetic. You think of a million things you could have done to attempt to prevent the onset. Simple things like cutting out soda and candy from your diet before it was too late. Losing that extra weight to keep your body happy and healthy. With the type 2 diagnoses came a feeling of failure, a reflection on years of playing with fire instead of taking care of a genetic condition that was lurking beneath the surface. I know it serves no purpose to look back in time, there is no rewind button in life. It is all about making changes for the future. Learning from past mistakes. Correcting the course we were on that led us down the wrong path. So in closing I offer this message to all type 1 & 2 diabetics and their families: Have a safe and happy holiday season, be there to support one another. Realize what is important in life. Take care of each other, and take care of yourselves. Most importantly, put your faith in God.